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The Double

by Quark Lepton

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So_Much_Music A solid, collection of twangy, reverb-drenched atmospheric alt-country/space pop tunes.

I draw thematic parallels to Beck's Sea Change, but less of a downer.

Lyrics can start plaintive, spiral into absurd and then through sheer weight of their conviction return to sincerity. Favorite track: Every Night.
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Mimeograph 00:49
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Every Night 04:05
Every night, I crept from the bed where my lover lay And took out all my checkbooks and wrote void on every page And slid into the night like an eel glides into the void beneath the sea Every night, I creep from the bed And cut up all my credit cards and cut off my hair And burn all my passports and forget my own name And leave for some place where they’ve all done the same Every night I burn down my house Flames circle the suburbs, they devour the town And cover my exit, and help me escape It’s what they all might do if they were awake Every night I put on my dress And go into the city without my face Where nobody knows me, or know himself And puts up his image on a forgotten shelf
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Being Alone 03:29
I’m gonna do everything for myself Keep everything for myself Oh it’s hard, hard being alone I’m gonna steal everything for myself And only believe in myself You can’t trust this world to leave you alone One of these days, I’ll get it right And show the whole world that it’s wrong I’m gonna figure it out tonight Bring secret equation to light You know it’s hard, hard being alone (And to know that you’re right) And I try to be smart But being smart makes you an asshole And if you follow your heart You’re heart will betray you, then what? And one of these days, I’ll get it right And show the who world that’s wrong I’m gonna be strong for myself And only long for myself You know it’s hard, hard being alone
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Magic Hour 02:57
Well enjoy this while it lasts, Being the beautiful people, no future or or past And every day is painless to digest And it’s good to never get old And to laugh at other people shuffling off to the grave In this simulation where nothing matters at all As long as you buy the right things And do the right things And think the right things Nothing can touch you at all And who wants to worry themselves About nuclear missiles or God knows what else About melting ice or civil wars next week? And who wants to feel alone? I want golden sunset when magic hour comes And to live in an ad for vacations or cars or beer As long as you drink the right things Swallow the right things and hate the right things Nothing can hurt you again
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Bars in the daytime That’s what it feels like to be low To be low In the dark, it’s romantic That’s what it feels like to be in love To be in love Well I tried to be in love with the night But the stars were holes and the moon is a lemon rind Leaves in the fire That’s what it feels like to be alive To be alive But I know you’re not around anymore Drunk on Sunday morning That’s what it feels like to be alone To be alone But I know I’m not alone anymore Cause your spirit still scratches at my door
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Sometimes you’re there Sometimes you aren’t there Sometimes I feel you Sometimes it’s just air
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The Double 04:49
As a child, I was bitten in the yard by a dead bat And its dead ghost will haunt me all of my days And now I’ve grown tired of fighting my own image But I can see the works of his hands all over town Well I can see you might say I’m making excuses Hiding all my misdeeds behind a curtain of words But this shadow is as real as I am, perhaps more real And he can take all of the blame for whatever you’ve heard Well it’s hard killing somebody Who wears your own face and a different name But now that you’re real and I am not real Maybe you can do all the work and I’ll keep the name Well the mirror tells lies I only half believe And truths that I’m slow to understand And in the dark of the night I follow a shadow Down the fluorescent-lighted highway that leads to my home Well it’s hard killing somebody Who wears your own face and a different name But now that I find it’s him or it’s me I can do what I have to do and not feel ashamed
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Silent Eyes 03:44
Silent eyes, what do you see? Your makers left you all alone; what do you see? In there absence what do you see? Is this existence or a dream— what do you see?! Across the desert, you can record Full range of movement, shade & warmth, But nothing stirs Unmoving arm, what do you wait for? If you never reach or bend or grasp What are you for?! Across the ages, did you record A silent world where nothing moves, No grain disturbed Silent eyes, what is this place? Does perception give you life? Why were you made?! Put in place by grasping hands Does there corruption spread to you, And can you sin?
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On a normal day, clouds open up And you can see it coming down And nothing in the world will be the same Wave goodbye to everyone That you’ve met along the way And be replaced by something with your name Black cat on your doorstep Black car in your house Change is bad, every time You should avoid it if you can Try not to die Or give up on your friends Reflection in your doorway Reflection in your house Everyone gets eaten in the end On a normal day, clouds open up And you can see it coming down
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The Gulf 02:11
Hot winds from the Gulf, they reminded me of you So I tried to escape into the sea I know it's not that often that I think beyond my feet Or where today they might be taking me Don't tell me that you love me unless you'll look at me that way Don't tell me that you need me, because the weight of need's too much But if you tell me that you want me, well, that would be okay Some words have to have meanings these days Half-watching television from motel lobby chair Drinking bitter coffee to pass the time Wondering if anyone listens to themselves I wish love or truth would blacken out my mind There are no truths, there are no lies There is no world, there is no time There is nothing that will help you sleep tonight Or keep the stranger at the door satisfied
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(see the 2016 release, The Cosmic Flophouse)
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Pterodactyl 03:51
Bottle rockets in the night, on the fourth of July Are as meaningless to me as your whispered goodbye Or your disappointed sigh Antique porcelain I break, its pieces white and pink It will cut both my feet Hiding deep in the rug Bottle rockets in the night, bottle rockets in the night How I long for an equation That could predict their flight And I never wanna die And I don’t want you do die Whiskey river took your mind, or sometimes it was wine And sometimes it was cancer Pterodactyl up on high Bottle rockets in the sky I assume there’ll be some answer

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released October 19, 2018

Recorded and mixed by Quark Lepton in a house (Columbia, SC).
Mixing assistance: Katie Chandler.
Drum recording and production: Steve Nuzum and Charles Tomlinson.
Xaphoon recording: Tim McManus
Cover digital collage features art by Katie Chandler (mono prints) and Paulo Jacobi (sp?) (oil on canvas).
Violins on “Every Night” and “Bars”: Kristen Harris; drums: Charles Tomlinson; vocals on “Every Night” and “Pterodactyl”: Kelley McLachlan; bass on some songs: Sean Thomson; pedal steel: Ethan Fogus; xaphoon: Tim McManus; violin on “Black-Eyed”: Emily Wait.

Mastered by Damon Moon at Standard Electric (Atlanta, GA).

All music and lyrics (c) 2018 by Steve Nuzum.

Thanks: Katie, Charles, Ethan, Kelley, Kristen, Emily, Sean, Tim.

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